yes seriously..think the ac rj guys match was so interesting and intense..cos they were always to close..and their strokes are ever so nice and swift..esp the 1st doubles match..but quite wasted cos one of the guy leg cramp..sigh..seemed we were winning but still lost in the end..but they really damn hiong..yes..watched the 2nd doubles match, 2nd and 3rd singles match too..aaron played 2nd singles..thou lost but well fought (: then 3rd singles the rj guy is so super cute and full of charm and charisma..yes totally..okae but ac lost to rj..sa lost to acsib too..tt makes ac coming up against sa! woah..okae ac won sa..so we're 3rd..but sa well done kay..we'll see you next season (:

mama left for sa rj rugby match without telling me when i said i wana go watch with her -_-" anw acjc lost to acsib and sa lost to rj..yea so tt makes sa up against ac AGAIN..but darn it la..missed the ac sa rugby match on mon cos i thought it was on wed..damn it..anw sa won from penalty..score was 10-10..but sa got the penalty over 1st..yea..so a bit erm..haha..but im happy tt sa won too..tt makes us 4th (: then hope mama wont be so fury alr..and well done daddy! (:

for hockey ac was up against sa too..but ac lost to sa..tt makes us 4th too..but nvm bingchang train harder for next season kay! (: and also to hari and daryl..train hard for next year's season yea..make sure ur make it into top 4! (:






thurs night went for RESTLESS 4 by AC dance! so hectic man..so we're all running late and we went the wrong way somemore..worse is no one knows how to go there..nonetheless its very nice..all the dances..and the cheorographing is so Raj style man..all the movements and formations i reckon..like the we're all in this tgt song and the your love is so amazing song..i heards and formation and stuff..they there were even same dances! exactly the same i the song and i was like oh my gosh and waited to see if the dances are the same..and yes its e same..and so i laughed..they danced well..saw candice, joanne, stephanie, kenneth, ben, adam, hann bin, terry etc..yes i must admit they all danced really well..cheers! (: went for supper at bugis macs with jiayi..had a long heart-to-heart talk..feels so great to talk to someone..its been long since i last had a heart-to-heart talk with someone..love jiayi <3

fri declared halfday..which was meant to be a surprise but almost the whole sch knew the day before..haha..so we had like 1 hr of assembly updating and summarising all the sports season and performing arts achievements..and when the principal went to the mic..before even she spoke..the whole sch was like cheering alr..cos we're all just waiting for her to announce the halfway due to excellent achievements from both sports groups and performing arts..haha..damn funny..half of my class was absent la..due to whatever reasons..haha..went cafe to lag with jiayi angel stan for the 1st time..we nv went there to lag during long breaks..we always stayed at the void deck..had a good talk and good laugh..mr santosh comments are ever so funny..he wrote frosty the snowman on a nameless assignment..so we were saying next time we all write names of cartoon characters..haha..damn funny la..then we went on blabbering abt all the different cartoon characters..haa..

and gossiped abt ssm's tagline..haa..went to lt5 for phy lect and the moment we stepped outa the door from the stairs..he said his tagline again..and we burst out laughing like some lunatics..haha..but yea its damn funny la if u were with us..haa (: then cam-whored at lt5 after phy lect..haha..after sch the class disappeared immediately..oh man..cant even like haven some class lunch out tgt or smth..damn lousy man..so i went ikea to buy photoframe for church stuff..its brothers' day..jiayi went with me..we were entertaining ourselves in ikea and cam-whoring again with all the mirrors..haha..had quite a long talk with her too while hot-dogging..haha..oh man i wanna shop! GSS starts! and GST is increasing soon on june 25! OMG! i dont care im gonna shop till i drop this hols..haa..had such a hard time pasting the macaroni alphabets onto the photoframe la..cos its so tiny..almost killed me man..phew..thx mum for helping! love mum <3






during the last wk's contact time for the semester..sir asked one very thought provoking qns..if time can turn back and ur given a 2nd chance, who would have made another choice and choose another sch? he ask us to close our eyes and raise our hands..he asked twice..for both times, i was so so so tempted to raise my hand..but i didnt..i always reckoned tt ac wasnt my choice at all.it wasnt a sch of my own choice at all..it wasnt where i wanted to be at all..never ever in my thoughts..as i always would have preferred nj or sa..i thought if ever anyone asked me tt qns..my answer would be a definite yes tt i'll have another choice..but at tt moment..i dno what stopped me from raising my hand..im so traumatised by my own action..

but i was thinking..i did choose the jc of my own choie twice..i chose nj twice..but GOD denied my a place in there twice..and i could have chosen sa and definitely would have stayed in sa..but i chose ac 1st due to proximity..and at tt moment of choice im very clear tt i will gt into ac..very indirectly ac was my own choice thou it wasnt where i wana be..so very obviously ac is where GOD wanted to put me in..he gave me the freedom of my heart and mind..but he made me think logically to choose ac due to proximity..and so even if i was given a 2nd chance to choose, and i chose what i wanted, i still wouldnt get it cos GOD has his own plans for me..and clearly he made me follow my mind instead of my heart..so i've learnt obedience..

sch life hasnt been smooth sailing at all for me..with all the tutorials and tutotrs and catching up and deadlines and frens problems all piling up tgt at the same time like one big snowball smashing hard against me..my whole life feel so screwed up..esp recently with frens..be it internally or externally..they're all just making me feel so screwed up..regarding the internal one..i dno whats the freaking problem cos my conscious is clear..i did nth wrong..ur just so jealous and PATHETIC man..seriously i PITY you..if ur out just to ruin my life..go away and forget it man..stop wasting ur effort cos it wont pay off..ur never gonna make it..cos i wont let u..shoo! stop messing with my life..go away LOSER!

as for externally..sigh..i dno what to say..i just dont feel gd..i dont feel rmbered or loved anymore..esp from my besties..its like a new chapter with no strings attached ANYMORE..yea its NJ..NJ is one whole big family..they're not my family..this sounds v emo..not trying to exaggerate but yea tt pretty much the fact..cos its not only me..twt and tpj also feel it..yes we 3 all know it too well alr..we've talked abt it..and have been pretty numb to tt alr..or rather used to it all alr..i dno why..but its like those closet to me previously felt the furthest and most stranger to me now..like ljt tsm lwz fredn..its like i see them now and i dno what to say..like i've got nth more to say to them..cos its like im so damn happy to see them..but they dont seem to feel the same when they see us..it gives me a feeling they dont really bother..so tt made me refrain from talking to them alr..so mayb tts why i dno what to say anymore..

i didnt talk to them for more than a sentence..neither did they talk to me..so i was thinking ' ok kat take it cool..forget it..stop reminiscing abt the past..move on!' mayb cos they were so close to me tt i expected way too much from them..cos i still feel ok talking to ljh valt ljw xzh twq etc..thou yhh its in ac but sometimes i feel they same towards her..i dno why..cos its like i'll be so happy to see her..i go over to say hi..then i dno what to say alr..i'll always be tryin so hard to think of what to say..or try to start some convo or smth..

felt v sad cos she said she think i changed a lot..ive alr tried v hard to act v norm like how i used to be..or how we used to be..bt she still saw thru it..or rather she felt it..feelings can never be hidden..sigh..so she really does feel it and know it too..yes and i clearly know how different am i a person now as compared to the past..the ever crazy and cheerful me..its gone..no longer to be found..cos she was so close to me so guess she felt it the most and knew it best..she knew me well..so hearing tt from her made my heart sink cos i know how true those words were and how much she meant them since we were so close..i want the old kat back..i want her to come back..and im sure every1 wants her back too..life would be so much better with her back..c'mon frens i cant do this alone..lets find her back together (:





the start of hols..the start of mugging and bucking up..go kat! time to catch up and study for term exams and prepare for PW! okae frens lets go out play somedayS too..haha (: